The scaffolding that once clung to the San Juanico Bridge now hangs in my mind like a question that refuses to go away. Every time I cross that span between Samar and Leyte, I feel the same unease: if there truly is a resolve to repair it, why does the work seem forever suspended in delay and uncertainty?

I have watched that bridge my entire life. How it rises above the strait with a quiet dignity, how it survives typhoons and turbulent waters, how it remains the lone graceful link between two provinces long denied real development. Yet now, as officials vaguely speak of “repairs,” I cannot help sensing something disturbingly familiar. These are the same tones used in projects where funds move swiftly while progress moves like a dying gecko clinging to a wall. Every long pause, every unexplained extension, every sudden change in projected cost feels like a page torn straight from the old playbook of public works that serves wallets better than it serves people.

Whenever the budget for San Juanico’s “rehabilitation” is mentioned, it seems to balloon, shrink, and grow again—like a creature that changes shape depending on who is doing the talking. I find it troubling that the cost estimates never seem to rest on solid ground, as if the bridge itself were floating on water rather than anchored to bedrock. In public infrastructure, an unstable budget is rarely an innocent clerical oversight; more often, it is the first sign that someone is trying to keep doors open for easy tapping. The longer the figures remain hazy, the easier it is for hands to find their way inside the pot.

I have also noticed how the rhetoric around the project shifts from “repair” to “upgrade” to “comprehensive improvement,” depending on the mood of the press briefing. These word games weaken public confidence. Repairs, after all, should be straightforward: identify what’s broken, fix it, ensure safety. But when labels change as swiftly as weather in the San Juanico strait, I start to wonder whether this is repair at all—or a long, slow creation of a bottomless well into which government funds can quietly disappear. It is not paranoia; it is the pattern that has shaped countless projects across this country.

The bridge itself seems patient, almost forgiving, bearing the weight of suspicion the way it bears the weight of cargo trucks rumbling every hour. I often imagine it asking why humans complicate simple things. It does not need ornamental lights or grand speeches; it needs structural care—a decisive, coordinated effort to preserve an essential piece of Eastern Visayas’ daily life. Yet the decision-makers seem more interested in lingering on the budgeting stage, as if trapped in a cycle they refuse to break because it is too profitable to leave.

I know public officials love to remind us that repair projects take time. But time is not the issue here; integrity is. If efficiency were the real goal, we would have seen a clear timetable, transparent procurement, and consistent updates—not prolonged silence, abrupt budget shifts, and explanations that sound half-hearted even as they are spoken. After years of watching national and local projects suffer from the same disease, I’ve learned to recognize when something has stopped being a public service and has started becoming an income stream.

Still, beyond my frustration lies a more degrading sadness. The San Juanico Bridge is more than steel and concrete; it is a landmark woven into the lives of people from both islands. It deserves responsible stewardship. It deserves leaders who treat it not as an opportunity but as a duty. When I see its rusty patches and feel the slight tremors under heavy traffic, I think of how much more it could give if only it were handled with integrity instead of opportunism.

Yes, it calls for a straightforward approach—clear plans, fixed budgets, independent audits, and timetables that cannot be stretched at will. If there is a genuine desire to preserve this bridge for generations to come, then those in power must demonstrate it through actions that are free from theatrics and schemes. San Juanico Bridge must be treated not just as a symbol of connection but as proof that public trust, once honored, can still hold the weight of a nation.

The entrepreneurial journey is often described as exciting and full of possibility. But beneath the surface of innovation and ambition lies a challenge that rarely makes headlines: the struggle with self-doubt. For many entrepreneurs, unresolved insecurities can quietly shape decisions, limit opportunities, and slow down business growth.

Addressing these internal challenges is just as important as managing finances, strategy, or innovation.

Understanding the Roots of Self-Doubt

Entrepreneurial insecurity rarely appears out of nowhere. It often traces back to earlier experiences—such as critical feedback in childhood, professional setbacks, or financial instability. These experiences can leave lasting impressions that influence risk tolerance and leadership style.

For example, someone who grew up in uncertain financial conditions may carry a fear of failure into their business, avoiding risks that could actually accelerate growth. Others may experience imposter syndrome—feeling undeserving of their achievements despite evidence of competence. This often manifests as overworking, procrastination, or difficulty delegating.

A practical way to uncover these patterns is reflective journaling. Asking questions such as When do I feel most insecure? What events still shape my confidence? can help identify the beliefs fueling self-doubt and highlight areas for personal growth.

Building Confidence in Entrepreneurship

Once insecurities are recognized, the next step is strengthening confidence. This doesn’t mean ignoring weaknesses or inflating one’s ego—it’s about cultivating a balanced, realistic entrepreneurial mindset.

Challenge negative self-talk: Replace thoughts like “I’m not ready for this” with “This is a challenge, but I have the skills and resources to figure it out.”

Celebrate small wins: Recording milestones, no matter how small, reinforces evidence of progress and builds resilience.

Practice self-compassion: Entrepreneurship is demanding. Extending the same understanding to yourself that you would offer a colleague can prevent burnout and improve decision-making.

These practices help shift the inner dialogue from self-sabotage to self-support, laying a foundation for long-term leadership growth.

The Value of Support Networks

Entrepreneurship often feels isolating, but strong networks are essential for overcoming self-doubt. Mentors, peers, and coaches provide not only practical guidance but also much-needed perspective.

Mentors can challenge limiting beliefs and offer strategies based on their own experiences.
Peers—especially fellow business owners—normalize struggles and reduce feelings of isolation.

Advisors or coaches provide accountability and structured support, helping entrepreneurs navigate both mindset and strategy.

Surrounding yourself with the right people strengthens resilience in business and creates a healthier environment for growth.

Skill Development and Delegation

Sometimes insecurities stem from skill gaps rather than mindset. In these cases, professional development becomes the most effective remedy. Workshops, executive training, and targeted coaching can all enhance competence and reduce uncertainty.
Equally important is learning to delegate. Smart leaders recognize their limitations and empower others to handle specialized tasks. Far from being a weakness, delegation demonstrates confidence, strengthens teams, and allows leaders to focus on strategy and innovation.

Redefining Failure as a Growth Tool

Failure, unfortunately is an inevitable part of the entrepreneurial journey. What defines successful leaders is their ability to treat setbacks as data, not as proof of inadequacy.
By reframing mistakes as opportunities for course correction, entrepreneurs develop adaptability—a skill more valuable than perfection. This perspective fosters a growth-oriented entrepreneurial mindset, where missteps are stepping stones toward business resilience and long-term success.

Conclusion

Overcoming self-doubt is not a single achievement but an ongoing practice. By identifying the roots of insecurity, reframing negative self-talk, leveraging support networks, and investing in personal development, entrepreneurs can transform their inner critic into a source of strength.

Confidence in entrepreneurship doesn’t mean eliminating doubt—it means navigating it with clarity and resilience. By addressing insecurities directly, business leaders not only enhance their personal well-being but also unlock greater potential for sustainable business growth and effective leadership.
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An kalipay ngan danay an katuyaw, may ada katapusan ngan may katubtuban.

Not that we rejoice on one’s demise but there are problems and events that we pray its ending. We think of the halt on the face of a fierce storm, and we pray for halt when our neighbor is on a karaoke concert when its time to sleep, even if the voice is akin to Frank Sinatra or Jed Madela. That too shall pass, that too, must stop.

The case of Manong Johnny, who once said that gusto ko happy ka or the one that grumbles, I do not respond to stupid questions! He finally writes 30 at 101 years old.
Juan Ponce Enrile, basically rose from illegitimacy of a son out of marriage to becoming the giant that he was in politics and the icon of longevity. He was well loved in the Senate by its employees, I have heard of his genuine generosity from Senate employees who are friends of mine. I have heard the comparisons and the observations from these folks.
In spite and despite the revisionism efforts, people in the know is certain that he was one of the architects of the Ferdinand Sr. administration, for all its glory and ruthlessness, Manong was there at the center, in command, in control. The logging concessions in Samar, the ruthless operation against the leftists and perhaps many other things that we can never know.

One thing is certain Manong was rich and had gone richer than most Filipinos, not his fault, maybe, but maybe a fate he wrestled with, and fate surrendered.
For a long time, I think of Manong as a demigod, half human, half alien. His memes were sellouts and blockbusters in drinking sessions because of his age and supposedly immortality.

But like the proverbial storm, problems, and even good things , it never really lasts. It never goes on forever even if you are Juan Ponce Enrile.

As Barbara Streisand would say, no matter how hard we try some bad things err, some good things never last. The arithmetic of fate will catch up and that it will come in the dead of the night when no one is watching.

May ada katubtuban an tanan!